REVERB GAMERS 2012, #31: How would your life be different if you’d never gotten into gaming?

Gaming has influenced my life so much that it’s hard to say. At minimum, I doubt anyone before friends, family & random coworkers would know my name. I wouldn’t be invited as guests to places and all that jazz.

More than that, there’s a good chance I wouldn’t be alive today. That I’m typing this is right now is no small deal.

But I’m not ready to explain that in more detail. At least, not yet.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #30: What lessons have you taken from gaming that you can apply to your real life?

That’s a tough question. I have been gaming sine late high school. My friends, social life, and now business prospects all involve gaming. Narrowing it down to one set of lessons? I don’t think I can.

But rather than try to iterate many lessons, I’ll name just one. One I have mentioned before: we make our own win conditions.

Gaming & being a game designer over the years has taught me about the value, power, and limits of amateur psychology.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #29: What does the word “gamer” mean to you? Is that different than what other people seem to think it means?

Self-identifying game enthusiast.

Granted, these days “gamer” covers so much ground. Do you play Call of Duty? World of Warcraft? iOS games? Board games? RPGs? The word does not even pretend to mean a tribe anymore, as it did once when gaming was a thing to apparently be shameful about.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #28: Do you have any house rules when you game? What are they, and why do you use them? If not, why not?

There’s a theory that all gaming is influenced by house rules, and that’s one of the formative elements of roleplaying. I find that idea interesting and feels like it fits with 90% of what we do.

Anyone following my blow knows I talk about game hacks, which is what game designers call “house rules”. :)

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #27: If you were an Ent, what kind of Ent would you be? Or, what other NPC creature would you be? Why?

The idea of “NPC Creature” is weird. Again, one of those “yeah, these questions highlight that my hobby is so damned different from other people who also play RPGs” questions.

But I can say that being a Shadowrun-style dragon would be pretty fucking boss.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #26: Who or what was the most memorable NPC you’ve ever encountered? Why?

Hmm. So many games.

I can think of one, but it was memorable because it was a really bad GM bit, where the GM had his pet NPC in a convention one-shot, and was talking about him after the game was over. I won’t go in any further, because that’s unkind.

There’s one thing. I was playing in a Sorcerer game run by Jesse Burneko (of the Actual People, Actual Play podcast). It was a Victorian gothic game with a heavy familiar theme, and my demon was my grandfather bound in a pocket watch. The only way the watch could communicate was through normal pocket watch activity. During a tense scene, I was talking with him/it. Jesse delivered a powerful performance of a barely animate object that sticks with me today.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #25: If you game enough, you’re bound to run into someone being an ass. What’s the most asinine thing someone’s done in a game with you? How did you react? Did that experience change the way you game?

Two stories.

I once told a guy I regularly gamed with to never come back to one of my convention games when he, in two of them, talked shit like “oh, well, when Ryan’s running at home, the game would have already been over” or “oh, Ryan will let me get away with this.”

For the second one… [TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual Assault]

One time, this one gamer in a Montsegur 1244 game (a GM-less one with scene pass-around) had a scene with my character, and he started it by screaming “You raped me!” In, uh, a crowded game store. There wasn’t a person at that table who happily engaged with him after that.

I sort of half-larp sometimes, standing up and exploring the physical space, and I literally walked out of that scene. Paul Tevis talked about this some time ago on Have Games, Will Travel.

The solution that some of us have taken is to just avoid these sorts of people. Sometimes I’ll walk away from a game if I see such a person there. Life is too short to play games that I feel are going to be shat upon by toxic gamers.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #24: Have you ever been to a game convention? What was it like to be surrounded by so many other gamers? If not, would you like to go to one? Why or why not?

*laugh*

Once or twice. [1];)

I love it. I do small, regional shows. I do Origins, Gen Con & PAX. I run game gatherings. I love getting the tribe together. It helps purge the toxicity that Internet bullshit & miscommunication creates. Plus, it’s just great to meet people in the flesh and game face-to-face with new folks.

- Ryan

[1] By which I mean between ten and twenty a year, for those who don’t know why I’m laughing.

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #23: Have you ever experienced Total Party Kill (TPK), or been close to it? What effect did that have on you personally? On your group of players? Have you ever used retroactive continuity (retcon) to save yourself? Why or why not?

Quite a few times, but I’ll just talk about two unusual cases.

One was a game of Mythender that went a different direction, and we played with the PvP rules. The PvP rules, incidentally, are geared to make mutual play death likely.

And they did. Total party kill, if I remember right. But it was a good end to that game, a fitting note about what godlike beings might do to one another.

Another was an old GURPS Black Ops game I ran. The idea was that I was going to TPK the group in the first session, in order to end it with all the characters coming back as reanimated operatives five years later. And like many ideas, this was a good idea…that was almost executed for shit.

One player was in on it. And we did a long running attempt-at-Ronin chase/battle where I kept overwhelming and killing them one by one. Which was not exactly one. One guy kept rolling really well, and eventually I decided to stop pursuing him when he was the only one left.

They were about ready to tell me to fuck off and never run again when I turned to one guy and said “Hey, Mike, you should roll Fright Check.” He looked confused — they all did — but he complied, and we ended up the characters waking up mid-reanimation procedure. As a group, we ended on an interesting — and good! — note.

Oh, and this was my first time GMing with this group, over a decade ago. So, yeah, there are better introductions. But I stayed one of the regular GMs, so that’s something.

I later pulled this trick again in a GURPS WWII Winter War/Weird War game, but I started with “We’re going to start with normal soldiers being slaughtered, like the beginning on a zombie flick, before we get to your Ski Patrol badasses”. I learned to preface. :)

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #22: Describe the worst game you’ve ever played in. What made it so bad? Did your fellow players help, or make it worse?

My very first game of Dungeons & Dragons. I think second edition. It’s the high water mark for “shittiest game”, which I guess is more “high sewer mark”.

I was asked to join a game for a one-shot, as I was in town crashing over at a friend’s place. They were a third level chaotic evil party.

Yeah, it’s one of those stories.

I make my character before the game, with some help. A third level elf wizard named Brennan Quisinart.[1]  When we get to the game, as it starts, the DM describes the camp and then asks me what I’m doing.

“Uh, I guess I’m warming myself by the fire?”

He rolls some dice behind the screen, and says I take some amount of damage (he said something specific, but I cannot recall the numbers, just the hatred). I died, due to arrow fire that came in from no where.

Then the attack begins, where everyone else fought and I did fuck all but watch.

After the fight, we talk for a moment about whether I need to roll up a new character. I pointed out that I hadn’t actually played the old one, so maybe I could just rename him. So I did.

Oh, and my body was looted by another PC. So when I come back, I played my character’s half-brother, Shaft Quisinart. Because, well, I got shafted. I also described my elf as essentially blackface, because apparently I thought mock racism was funny once.

I asked for my character’s stuff back. What happened instead was said PC murdering my second character.

So…take three on my elf wizard. This was was Superfly Quisinart. I remember describing goldfish platform boots. I don’t know why. Probably because I was being shat on and making someone laugh was a new personal win condition. Said character did not challenge to tough fighter for his shit back, mainly so I could actually play.

And we played some bullshit game where “oh, you mesmerize the barmaid” was cool. They found some table of STDs in D&D and randomly rolled “Mummy Crotch Rot” for my character, though that was a long-term affliction, so whatever. Ha ha, STDs. Ha ha, joking about the fantasy equivalent of rohypnol.

Later, we had the climatic fight and we won…somehow with me having two Magic Missile spells memorized. So I used them against the guy who killed my second character, took back my item, and no one gave a shit. There was a joke of “yeah, that player never has characters survive.” They were even sort of celebrating this momentary win until I took it away.

I only remember one guy’s name, and haven’t seen them in years. I hope those guys aren’t douchebags anymore. But yeah, that was my first experience with D&D, and I’m glad it wasn’t my first experience with gaming.

- Ryan

[1] Don’t judge me. We were all young once.

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #21: What’s the best bribe you’ve ever given (or received as) a GM? What did you get (give) for it?

My only response is to be somewhat disgusted by the question.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #20: What was the most memorable character death you’ve ever experienced? What makes it stick with you?

I cannot remember the name of the character, but I remember most of the other details. This was a GURPS Fantasy game several years ago, with a heavy Inquisition theme. My Christian knight character was essentially fucked politically, captured, and given to the Head Inquisitor in the region to extract truths & confession. He was a very devout knight, loyal to the idea of the crown more than to the actual forces at work that had true power. That was..a problem.

That he travelled with a Muslim of note was also an issue, in the form of “another reason we’re going to torture you, as an example.” It was a very hardcore, religious war-themed game. Brutal. And an entire session was a smash-cut back and forth to the rest of the party trying to figure out how to break him out of the fortress and my torture.

I made some will rolls, but was never told that my character completely submitted. The GM took a novel-for-the-time twist of letting me decide that. I didn’t want to go out like that, so I didn’t. And we kept talking & playing scenes of torture.

I learned a lot about medieval torture devices & methods in that session.

In the end, he was sentenced to be burned at the stake in the square. The party, in disguise, watched him die.

That was the session, and turned out to be the high point of the campaign, as after that it flopped and a couple sessions later went on permanent hiatus. Still, hell of a character death.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #19: What’s the weirdest character you’ve ever played? How did you end up with him/her/it?

Let’s stick to PCs I’ve played. I don’t know if I can pick the weirdest, but I can focus on the first weird character I played. I cannot remember his name — it was over ten years ago — but it was the second D&D 2/e game I played. I talked with the DM, and wanted to play what we ended up calling “a chromatic elf.” I was one of a cursed elf tribe whose skin changed color based on the moods of those around him. Not his moods, which was key.

This lead him to becoming the party’s scout. They figured out the distance they could stand to not affect his skin, and had him march out. When his skin changed color, that was trouble.

Oh, and he was a first level mage. Who miraculously survived the couple sessions I played.

Which, thinking on it, is the sort of weird I like. Take one thing, and otherwise play it straight. He was a scared, timid thing because, you know, the whole world was pretty fucking scary and he was suddenly the party’s coal mine canary.

How I ended up with him? Probably because I was in my “I want to be a unique snow flake” phase. I was young, in college, and a sad nerd. You know the story. And I had a silly idea that ended up being a bit harder than I expected.

You know what? I kinda want to play that again.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #18: Have you ever “cheated” on a die roll/random chance outcome, or looked up a quest solution on a fan site? Why or why not? If yes, was it worth it?

Oh, totally. I mean, I’ve been playing for years, and occasionally out of frustration in the past I have just lied about a die roll. And I understand why: in games where failure is uninteresting and brutal, and when die rolls are repeating like in a long-form battle or combat-focused RPG, having a third boring failure in a row while others are having better luck is fucking frustrating.

I accept this in a minis game. Luck is a big part of that. But I want luck to have less primacy — not none, but less — in what I feel is a collaborative experience. Or I want said element to have some fucking meaning.

On the flip side, I have fudged rolls as a GM. Sometimes I have lied about a good roll and sometimes about a bad one. This is before I really got acquainted with the Let It Ride philosophy, and it’s something I did more with GURPS than in any other game.

These days, I like playing games where this isn’t an issue, for one reason or another.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #17: What was the best reward you’ve ever gotten in a game? What made it so great? How much do you need tangible rewards (loot, leveling, etc.) to enjoy a game?

As a dirty, hippie story gamer, the best reward I’ve gotten in a game in the game itself.

No, seriously. I cannot recall any item or treasure that I’ve gained in a game that has been memorable. That’s not what turns my gamer crank.

That said, the act of acquisition & progression are important psychological reinforcement cycles to reinforce a moment of accomplishment. Long, long ago, when I did Master Plan podcast, I did an episode on my personal theories on advancement. I should revisit that topic as a blog post.

- Ryan

Good luck, folks.

We learned a lot with Third Edition — in design, in marketing, in the OGL experiment, in long-tail publication, all of that jazz.

We learned a lot with Fourth Edition — again in design, but also how the effects it had and the different crowds it drew to and away from it

Regardless of which edition you like better, if you like either at all, you would be a fool to not learn from all of that. And I hope that D&D Next will give us more to learn from again. Not just the negative examples the Twittersphere harps on about, but some honestly good stuff too. And given the design team, I trust we’ll see something eye-opening.

Rock on, folks.

And to everyone who is going off crazytown, making huge, declarative statements about what will happen, keep doing that. I’ve bookmarked some of the crazier ones for when I need a good laugh.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #16: Who was the most memorable foe you’ve ever come up against in a game? How did you beat him/her/it? Or did you?

Since I play so many games, and since my games tend to run more to story than adversarial gaming, and because I GM so often, I don’t have a good answer to this question.

Right now, the most memorable are from various games of Dungeon World. The DMs I’ve run with have had some challenging monsters, and Dungeon World is a bit rough on characters. The first time I played, Hamish Cameron had us fighting a giant water demon. (To be fair, my fault.) It knocked me down to one hit point in the first hit, but I wasn’t about to let that stop me.

Andrew Linstrom had us fight an iron golem. It knocked my character clear across the area…which is where I my character discovered he was really, really good at jumping across shit to kill a metal fucker.

Nora Last did a really great take on a cave troll, beating us over and over, driving the excitement home. Pretty much every game of living Dungeon World I’ve played has had a strong sense of exciting foes.

But none of those were anything but momentary battles. As far as long-term foes go, I think that’s something players in the games I run would have to speak toward. And I hope that what I do is at least a little memorable. But it’s more important of their own interactions are memorable, and my foes are merely catalysts for that.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #15: People often talk about the divide between what happens “in game” and “in real life.” Do you maintain that divide in your own play, or do you tend to take what happens to your character personally? Why?

I don’t take what happens to my character personally. And I don’t play with those people. I’ll take emotionally mature folks, thank you very much.

That said, if it’s clear that someone is personally attacking me through play, or is violating a stated line, I will call on that. I’ll leave, or I’ll kick the motherfucker out. And given my extreme low tolerance for “that’s what my guy would do” and similar, you can best believe that I will not put up with someone doing that to someone else while I’m at the table, player or GM or whatever.

Sometimes, accidents happen, and those are worth talking out lest things fester and become bitter.

So, no, I don’t take roleplaying personally, but I will take personally people being shitty to each other and trying to use “but it’s roleplaying” as an excuse to allow it.

But given that I’m not particularly competitive, and that I’ll often play a heel because heels are interesting to me, I suppose that’s not surprising.

- Ryan

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #14: What kinds of adventures do you enjoy most? Dungeon crawls, mysteries, freeform roleplaying, or something else? What do you think that says about you?

The idea that “freeform roleplaying” is a separate callout is weird. Combined with other questions, I’m starting to get a sense that what I call “roleplaying” is far, far different from what these questions assume. I don’t know what that says about me.

I also don’t know what that says about the rest of you, either.

Anyway, I couldn’t tell you what I enjoy the most, as I couldn’t tell you what sort of TV I enjoy the most.[1]

When it comes to adventure structure, I’m happy with drama-based and travelogue-based games[2]. Mysteries are cool, and I think every game could do well with a mystery component to it. Dungeon crawls (the travelogue style) have a nice, campy feel for beer & pretzels fun, or can get emo and epic like I try to do in Mythender.

So, uh, games of all sorts are cool?

- Ryan

[1] Actually, that’s a lie: I enjoy The Daily Show & Colbert Report more than most. But going back to solely fiction rather than satirical comedy…

[2] What I’ve also called adventure games & story games.

REVERB GAMERS 2012, #13: Who’s the best GM/storyteller/party leader you’ve ever had? What made him/her so great?

Focusing on GMs, I would have to choose between Carl Rigney & Paul Tevis, and I won’t. I have been blessed with many find GMs over the years, but it’s from Carl & Paul that I’ve learned the most.

Paul’s the person who introduced me to returning questions. I remember one game where I asked: “Is there anywhere where I could duck for cover?”

His response: “I don’t know. Is there?” He would tease out details, and create a sense that those elements, while tactical, were also narrative.

Carl has taught me to power in picking up throwaway lines and running with it to make it real and, often, dangerous. I wish I had a good example off the top of my head, but I don’t, so you should just imagine something mindblowing here.

<insert your mind being blown>

I know, right? Paul & Carl have many tricks, and by watching & gaming with them, I have learned to be a better GM.

- Ryan